Foolish Love

Dear Master,

I have thought it over for quite some time. I find your love foolish. Why do you want to love me so deeply? Do you not know that your deep love for me places you in a lowly and vulnerable position? Do you not know that if you love me so deeply, you are bound to be hurt by me so deeply as well each time I turn my back against you and reject you? Why do you not choose to keep a safe distance from me and love me conditionally, loving me to the extent that I love you, lest you get hurt unnecessarily?

Do you know that because of your foolish love, I am bound to be a foolish lover as well? Do you know how painful it is for me to place myself in a vulnerable position, willingly to be susceptible to hurt and rejection by people that I am committed to love? Do you know how it feels when they turn their back against me and reject me?

How I wish I could choose the other path, keeping a safe distance from everyone else so that I can protect myself from being hurt so badly. How I wish I could love others, in a casual, conditional and convenient way, so that I can still be seen as a loving Christian and yet not having to endure the threat of being hurt.

Master, can you stop being foolish, that I might stop being foolish as well?

Yours foolishly,
A foolish follower